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cause it's way too far to go through the door.
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[Dec. 12th, 2004|05:58 pm] |
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| everything matters... ...except what i feel |
[Dec. 11th, 2004|05:17 pm] |
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| |  fuck | ] |
| [ | music |
| | my chemical romance-hang em high | ] |
i called mary this morning. she said that she would call me back later, thats basicaly all our coversation consisted of. so i was bored all day cause she said that she was grounded and couldnt do anything. then she calld me and like 4:30 and she wanted to know how to play a song on guitar and it turns out that tiffany was over. i dunno i think ive said it before that i dont really feel comfortable when im around both of them at the same time. i feel like im a bit too mature but when im just with mary she acts kind of different like more mature then she acts when tiffanys around, when their together they act so dumb and like they scream at stupid things and its weird but anyway she called and i dunno when i found out tiffany was there i was like oh great i bet ther having a good time and im sitting here alone putting up a stupid christmas tree. and like thursday i let mary borrow my bracelet cause she let me borrow her cd and she was like are you comming downtown monday cause im staying downtown and im like no i think i wanna go home. cause im just in the mood that i think going downtown to sit in subway is the stupidest thing and id rather be home. and she was like no you have to come and im like i dont want to do like 5 minmutes later shes like no you HAVE to comedown town.. why? cause i have her cd, doesnt matter if i do she just needs her cd. and i was like ill just give it to you another time cause i dont wanna go and shes like well i lost your bracelet. my music=life bracelet that i just got like 4 days ago and im like what the fuck ok thanks for the cd then cause you lost my shit and she like no i didnt have it and im like well your the one who i gave it to and she said that tiffany had it an she was chewing on it and now they cant find it. after i stressed about a million time that i didnt want her to chew on it. whatever like when they where trying to find out the note mary was like here talk to tiffany and im pretty sure tiffany said no its your friend in the background im not 100 per cent but im almost positive thats what i heard so whatever y'know i think ill do fine sitting here then sitting on the phone begins treated like an asshole. so i hung up. no one bothers with me and i feel stupid cause all i ever do is fuss and worry about what everyone else wants or what they need, what they'd like me to do for them and no one does that for me. tiffany didnt even tell me that she changed her journal name. and they friends only banner i made for mary she ruined. but ok thats just my feelings, doesnt matter.
i feel like all i ever write in this journal is negative, sorry i guess i just have a negative life.
im gonna get used to this cd, because untill mary gives my bracelet back or gets me a new one, she will not have this cd, i will |
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| after you rea it, your gonna be pissed and i dont really care, thats why its no comments |
[Nov. 22nd, 2004|04:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | coheed and cambria-blood red summer | ] |
oh my fucking god. ok, marys mom hates me again, and i think its bullshit. i mean wouldnt you? how would YOU feel if someone who you dont know that well hates you for NO reason? i mean ok, first of all i didnt even do anything like im not innocent or anything but nothin was my fault. the first time marys mom hated me was the fire and as EVERYONE knows or SHOULD know i DID NOT DO IT it was jodi, that lasted for a while then it was just like oh blow it off cause im not gonna tell my mom the truth and she said she doesnt hate you anymore. then things where ok i guess. now marys mom hates me again whitch is AGAIN bullshit cause i DID NOT DO IT. well.. i did but it was different this time. this time im on the bus and my phone rings.. ok? jodis on the phone and she said that marys there and ther gonna skip. im like... uh im there ill talk to you in a second. so i hang up, and turn the corner and what do you know theres mary. they wanted to skip and i was like i dont know and chris came and he was like no im not going and i was like im not going and mary was like YES YOU FUCKING ARE and whatever i felt pressured i guess what ever the reason i went with them and blah blah blah we got cought. so now, marys mom hates me because i made her doughter skip.. not is that what happened? NO! as far as i know it was jodis idea im not sure but she never wants to be in school, EVER so yea im guessing that she told mary to skip. ANYWAY so thats two time that marys mom hates me and two times that its not my fault, nothing i did either time should make her hate me. at all cause hello who hates other people just because they hang out with your daughter?
different subject. now, today downtown mary and like i dunno she got me food and we ate and then we had to go to the bus and im like holding all her things and like i got this poster off the wall of a chick for her and she like your so awesome. then like on the bus im trying to put it in her poster thing so she didnt have to hold it and she got all pissed off cause chris got em crinkly and i was fixing em and like marin was going throught her purse and she had my green mascara and i was like dude thats mine and she was like i know ew who the hell buys green mascara and i was like.. i got it for you cause you like green and she was like ew its nasty. i was like.. ok? so she wqas being like stupid and im like wow i guess im an asshole she was being really mean, what ever.
to top it all off, jodis pissed at me because i wont tell her what joe tole me because yea he said not to tell her. i feel bad but thatsthe way it goes. sorry.
im going to play roller coaster tycoon cause im cool |
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[Oct. 26th, 2004|05:34 pm] |
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also, i think tiffany hates me, not nessisarily hate but dislikes strongly..yea cause like.. i dunno going along with the other entry i think i just piss her off, and like it doesnt matter, she would rather hang with mary |
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[Oct. 26th, 2004|05:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | new found glory-i dont wanna know | ] |
i cut marys hair and i dont think she likes it. she keeps talking about it. for example "I HAVE NO HAIR!!! IM BALD!!!" and shes always like, its so short. even tho i think it looks really good and she keeps agreeing with me when i say it, i still think she hates it.
also, i dont like when people talk about my friends when im around. if i talk about someone and their your friend tell me to stop. today tiffany was talking about sarah and it made me upset because shes really not super ugly and ok shes a little tall but still my friend. apparently sarah said some things to tiffany and i understand that you guys dont like eachother but shes still my friend and i would appreciate it if it wasnt such a big conversation item when im around. uim pretty sure tiffany got mad at me after that but im not gonna back down on this because sarah IS my friend.. atleast i think so. she probably said im a short fat redhead who is emmensly ugly... anyway i really dont like it and i tell people off for it all the time. just today crystal and mike where talking shit about joe and i was like. uh thats mean and its rude, hes my friend, so what if he wears the same clothes everyday..
this is a good video.
ok bye
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[Oct. 23rd, 2004|03:39 pm] |
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| | asshole. | ] |
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| | brand new-jaws theme swimming | ] |
the cold air brings lady bugs. my house is surrounded.
i had something but i didnt think it was right to say. megan you are a seriously fucked up person and you need help. if you dont call me today were over. and im never falling for the 'lets start over' crap ever again. when i tell you something dont let it go out the other ear because when it comes to you i dont joke around. you make no effort what so ever to make things between us work and i cant be bothered to do it anymore. |
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[Oct. 20th, 2004|08:42 am] |
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| |  amused | ] |
in school again... half day tho... but it still sucks cause tech gets out at 11 and we get out at 12 so that means by the time everyone gets downtown thy'll have to wait at least and hour and somethin till we get their cause the bus is dumb... joe said that he might go.. i need to talk to megan cause this isnt working. it never does. clare just got here all late hahaha shes late! |
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[Oct. 13th, 2004|07:20 pm] |
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| |  cool | ] |
| [ | music |
| | mest-jaded | ] |
Aoccdrnig to rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a total mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.
Fcuknig amzanig, huh? |
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[Oct. 8th, 2004|07:48 am] |
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| |  this is awesome | ] |
hey guess what. the principal is in the library cause theres a fight. and im just sitting here hahahahahahah |
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[Oct. 6th, 2004|08:15 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | im in the librar...i think i hear a printer | ] |
im in school. i think this is awseom because i know a teachers password, miss albano so now i can go on wha eve site i wan to...hahahahah and im waiting for the bell to ring then chris is comming in here and we have another period...there it is haha i dont even have to go cause my class is comming here |
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[Oct. 5th, 2004|11:02 pm] |
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| |  oh god | ] |
oh my god. im like crying so bad right now. nip tuck season finaly.. oh man im still crying and its been over for 5 min. holy shit |
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[Sep. 20th, 2004|08:56 pm] |
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| | annoyed | ] |
fuck EVERYONE is at the LOC show and i couldnt go because out of all the people that i know that went they all hate me. including a certain someones mother. |
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[Sep. 17th, 2004|05:01 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | moody | ] |
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| | alex is playing something on gameboy. | ] |
i went downtown yesterday.. and i left early i dont even think they noticed.. then i skipped school today whatever i hate school already and im only a week in.
im going to the soutpark timon football game to see teressa cheer. joy. |
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[Sep. 15th, 2004|04:41 pm] |
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| | irritated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | brand new-last chance to loose your keys | ] |
apparently someone thinks im always it their business. sorry for being a curious person. |
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[Sep. 14th, 2004|10:51 pm] |
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wow adrien and eva, thats some hardcore incest. thats how you get birth defects lol. well.. i updated 4 times today.. i think thats enough, time for bed |
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[Sep. 14th, 2004|08:54 pm] |
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| |  creative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | stephen lynch- gerbil song | ] |
GREEN!!! |
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[Sep. 14th, 2004|07:58 pm] |
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*::Music::*
::What kind of music are you currently into?:: rock/alt/punk/emo
::What kind of music do you consider out of style?:: the stuff my mom listens to
::Would you ever cry if you met a famous musician?:: dont think so, i might drool a little
::Whats currently in your CD player?:: brand new-your favorite weapon
::Do you own any band shirts?:: yesh
::What was the last concert you went to?:: Warped Tour.
::Is music the main center of your life?:: Pretty much.
::Name a specific song that you could hold a mosh pit for:: i dunno, theres a few
::Ever been in a mosh pit?:: yea
::How was it?:: uhm, ok?
::Ever thought about running away so you could follow your favorite band?:: lol. of course not....
::Stalked someone in a band?:: ha does vinny count?
*::For the love of music…::*
::What is the craziest thing you have done to get music?:: down loaded illegally lol
::How far would you go to meet someone from your favorite band?:: i dunno, it depends on the situation
::How much do you love music?:: MORE THAN ALMOST ANYTHING.
::Name a song that youre crazy about:: uh theres a lot
::For the love of music would you die if it left?:: duh, yea
::What would you do if there was no more music?:: Make some... it'll suck but oh well
::Just to save music, would you ever kill someone?:: depends on who, if its kristina i dont even feel the need to answer
::Do you have a shrine in your room for a band that you love?:: no.... .. .... lol
*::Either Or::*
::Story Of The Year or Hoobastank:: Story of the year.
::P.O.D or Linkin Park:: linkin park
::Britney Spears or JLO:: Britney Spears.
::Christina Aguilera or Mandy Moore:: Christina Aguilera.
::Avril Lavigne or Kelly Osbourne:: uh kelly i guess
::Modest Mouse or Snow Patrol:: MODEST MOUSE.
::Jojo or Katy Rose:: Jojo. who the hell is katy rose
::John Mayer or Jason Mraz:: Jason Mraz.
::Maroon 5 or Yellowcard:: Yellowcard.
::New Found Glory or The Vines:: new found glory
::The Hives or The Strokes:: the srokes
::Will Smith or Frankie J:: uhm will smith, i dunno who frankie j is lol
::Eminem or 50 Cent:: uh, torture
::Limp Bizkit or Korn:: korn.
::Something Corporate or Matchbox Romance:: something corporate
::D12 or G-Unit:: neither.
::Nelly or Murphy Lee:: murphy lee hahaha
::The All American Rejects or Jimmy Eat World:: all american rejects
::Ok Go or Relient K:: ok go, christian music is ass
::Green Day or Taking Back Sunday:: oh man, both
::Switchfoot or Trapt:: Switchfoot |
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[Sep. 14th, 2004|07:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | lustra-scotty doesnt know!!! | ] |
i dont think im gonan go to the lefover crack show.. for one thing im a little unsure how its gonna be without jim.. but really i dont have a ride (marys mom hates me cause she thinks i started the fire in the garage! that was JODI!), or money i need to save money for mest and then i need to save money to see green day new found glory and sugarcult. so yea.. but mary.. really lol your mom hates me |
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